The weekend

Brandon seems to think I have invisible money growing out of my ass. "Go buy us something to make for dinner." Yeah ok, let me get right on that. Let me pull 20$ out of my ass!! I have no job and my mom keeps sending me money to pay BILLS and put gas in my car. I feel sooo annoyed. It might be the PMS though. [TMI I apologize]

Anyway, this weekend is valentines day. We aren't doing anything, we probably can't leave the house. It's fun being broke and living in this state. I miss Emily =[

Our 6 month anniversary is this Tuesday also. I count things. Everything. But I doubt Brandon will even acknowledge it. Anyway, i hope everyone has a great weekend!

Thursday

I wanted to start with this because I came across it and thought it was incredible. I miss doing makeup and being creative with it. I can't wait to have money and buy some new makeup and get back into it again. It's been forever!

Anyways, so it's Thursday and it was obviously uneventful. I went to this calling center place called Sitel. Brandon's sister used to work for them, and they called about my application. So I went and did this hour long questionnaire thing on a computer over there and I go back Wednesday for a "Job preview" whatever that means. I just need a job ya know? I'm sick of this. I got Alex's letter today, and it was everything I thought it would be when he said it was 'sappy.' It was an assortment of I'm sorry for everything and for letting you down. I thought missing you too much while doing the army would be hard and unbearable, but needing you to be here and to depend on you is even more unbearable. ugh. I'm trying to be nice in my letter back, I don't want to break his heart. But even if we were going to stay together when he found out about leaving for training, I don't think things would've played out differently. Brandon was back in my life and I had such strong feelings for him still..I still think I would've broken up with Alex for all the same reason I had in the first place. I did a lot of laundry today, and let me tell you, having only a washer and not a dryer sucks. It's really awkward to hang dry socks, I'm just sayin.

Oh hey!

So I guess this is my first post. Yayyyyy! I figured I would join the blog club with my best friend Kaelah and her boyfriend Mike.

Anyhow, I guess all I can really say about myself is that I was born and raised in California. I just moved to Oklahoma at the end of December and I'm still trying to adjust. I can't find a job to save my life, I haven't been able to meet anyone friend worthy, and I spend way too much time with my boyfriend. I am in school at the university of phoenix in Tulsa as a psychology major, but i haven't started yet! I start on February 24th. Aside from that I don't have much else to say. So here are some pictures for your viewing please!

Here is myself and the boyfriend that I moved here for! The love of my life since I was 13, Brandon. =]

This is myself. I am definitely not a fan of this picture, I look chubby as hell. But the photo credit definitely goes to my little sister, Chelsea

And I guess I'll introduce you to me ex, Alex. I was with Alex before Brandon came back into my life. He's in the Army, and is currently training in Georgia. We had been planning to break up in January anyway when he left for training and he didn't want me to 'wait for him.'
We ended up breaking up in July but remained friends, which Brandon is definitely not happy about.
I figured i'd tell you about him because I was told by Alex to prepare myself for a 'sappy letter' from him soon. Whatever that means.